| Friday, August 12, 2005 Realising everythings changed. Change to great to bear. Crying my eyes out. Thankful for knowing how to cover it up. Maybe I'm afraid to tell you how I really feel. How I feel that you just took the last best thing in my life away. No,not jealousy. Facing terms its partly my fault. But fuck,why every damn time. Realisation to late I suppose. My sadness came at the expense of your happiness. And you know what,I'm used to being stepped on. Have people not care how it will affect me. But thats just me,and I'm eefing sick of it. - My house,fun stuff. Wynne's house,more than fun. School,got to see Nat. She makes my day,everytime. She makes me smile eventhough she is scaring the shit out of me, while we walk out of school She's just someone you just gotta love. Somehow I feel your gonna take that too. Somtimes I feel your just so caught up with making yourself happy, you miss out on the people you have to hurt to get there. Truth be told,thats why I'm afraid to open up anymore. Down right,plain striped truth. - Wanna know a secret? I cried this morning when it was raining cos, I remembered how I messaged Pet once, cos I was scared of the lightning and I couldn't sleep. And she made me seem like a silly little girl. And it made me happy. I don't even think she remembers. And the fack that I can't do that anymore, it's sad. And I miss it. Yup,thats just me. Goodnight.
love & rockets.
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