| Sunday, February 26, 2006 Was so good seeing lil nic and mel again. Swear I missed them sooo damn much. - So I guess seeing you today didnt really help, right. Cos at once,everything just came back like a ton of bricks deciding to fall on top of me. I really wish I'd just turn into a cold person. Shut out every inch of emotion and realness. - Went to town with seshaa,pq and jer. met jill,sat at ob starbucks. slakced and i came home. - now i just feel like a silly young girl who belives all the fairytales she's heard everynight before sleeping.I feel like i'm seriously playing on the verge of physco.really,i do. - here's a song for all who wish to know, How to be dead ; snowpatrol. Please don't go crazy if I tell you the truth No you don't know what happened and you never will If you don't listen to me while I talk to the wall This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall Where you've had me for hours til i'm sure what I want But darlin' I want the same thing that I wanted before So sweetheart tell me what's up, I won't stop. No way. Please keep your hands down and stop raising your voice It's hardly what i'd be doing if you gave me a choice It's a simple suggestion, can you give me some time? So just say yes or no, why can't you shoulder the blame? Cos' both my shoulders are heavy from the weight of us both You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth You've not heard a single word I have said. Oh my God. Please take it easy, it can't all be my fault I haven't made half the mistakes that you've listed so far Baby let me explain something, it's all down to drugs At least I remember taking them and not a lot else It seems i've stepped over lines you've drawn again and again But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definately out Doctor Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride - I want to shrink,hide under the covers till i'm ready to face the world. The good world and bad.
love & rockets.
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